These are my two favourite photos of our little man to date! Worthy of sharing I think!!!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Week 19
A delayed post as its taken me a week to process the last appointment we had. As I mentioned, we had the anatomy scan last week and low and behold everything was looking "on track for a normal pregnancy". Thats a phrase I don't really understand!
We took nanna (my mum) along to the scan as she has never before seen the ultrasound technology in action and the little man did not fail to impress with his constant acrobats and performing!
The little guy was even measuring 2 days ahead.. something that we had never experienced with Matilda. He moves so much more than she ever did that in hindsight I'm not surprised that she was not a well little baby in the end. In contrast, he looks like his movements are stronger and that he actually has the energy to move. Following this appointment I was both happy and sad, happy that cashew is doing so well and sad that it was just misinformation about my medication that meant our little girl wouldn't make it.
Dr C even gave us a refined due date window.. he suggested that this little one may make its appearance between 32 and 38 weeks. Not bad considering he initially thought the best case scenario would be delivery at 32 weeks. Ive been told I can stay at work until 26 weeks and if things are still progressing nicely and i feel up to it, then I can keep working until 30 weeks.
We were brave enough to venture into a baby store this weekend.. for the first time since Matilda was born.. we didnt buy anything but i think making it through the doors and actually talking about things we need to think about getting was a good small step forward.
There is no change to my medication as yet as the placenta continues to look good. next appointment is at 21 weeks.
I think i might actually be happy/calm for the first time in this pregnancy... still need to get past the next two weeks though...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Week 17
Its been a while since I've wanted to write anything... theres alot going on right now and I am a bit stressed out to say the least.. i feel like an emotional wreck at times and prefectly fine other times... why? because cashew is almost as old as his big sister and we are getting close to the time where things with Matilda hit the rocks...
this bub is due 2 weeks earlier than his sister was and so their milestone dates fall very close adding to the anguish of going through all the milestones of not having Matilda here.
next week we will be having the anatomy scan... Matilda's anatomy scan was at 19 weeks but that was the first time we were told she was "2 weeks small for her dates" - being first time parents we didnt think anything of it and the sonographer didnt indicate that this was anything to be concerned about... regret number 1 was not doing anything about this - because i carried Matilda for another 2 weeks and may have been able to help her...then at her 21 week scan i was told "your baby is not going to make it"
the circumstances back then say matildas dad in melbourne (away from home) and rushing back on the next available flight...
this time around... circumstances have again seen cashews dad in melbourne (away from home) and the thought of having to go to the next appointment on my own scares the living daylights out of me... my mother will be joining me but somehow its just not the same as having Tim there.
i am trying to be positive... its quiet difficult... i figure if i can get through the next month, cashew will be 21 weeks, and officially been alive longer than his big sister..
we still have not been brave enough to buy this little man anything.. my poor little fella... i wish i had the courage to be happy and excited and coo over adorable little things that i want him to wear but i am still not ready to go there.. i feel that this 21 week hurdle is going to be huge and if we can get past it, i hope i will be able to relax a little bit more...
if anyone is out there, please be sure to send your positive vibes our way, its going to be a long month!
this bub is due 2 weeks earlier than his sister was and so their milestone dates fall very close adding to the anguish of going through all the milestones of not having Matilda here.
next week we will be having the anatomy scan... Matilda's anatomy scan was at 19 weeks but that was the first time we were told she was "2 weeks small for her dates" - being first time parents we didnt think anything of it and the sonographer didnt indicate that this was anything to be concerned about... regret number 1 was not doing anything about this - because i carried Matilda for another 2 weeks and may have been able to help her...then at her 21 week scan i was told "your baby is not going to make it"
the circumstances back then say matildas dad in melbourne (away from home) and rushing back on the next available flight...
this time around... circumstances have again seen cashews dad in melbourne (away from home) and the thought of having to go to the next appointment on my own scares the living daylights out of me... my mother will be joining me but somehow its just not the same as having Tim there.
i am trying to be positive... its quiet difficult... i figure if i can get through the next month, cashew will be 21 weeks, and officially been alive longer than his big sister..
we still have not been brave enough to buy this little man anything.. my poor little fella... i wish i had the courage to be happy and excited and coo over adorable little things that i want him to wear but i am still not ready to go there.. i feel that this 21 week hurdle is going to be huge and if we can get past it, i hope i will be able to relax a little bit more...
if anyone is out there, please be sure to send your positive vibes our way, its going to be a long month!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Week 15
I have been feeling movement for the past week and a bit now... and yesterday i had an appointment with the OB.. i hadnt felt you all day and was so worried something was wrong.. the OB was running over an hour late and all i could do was sit in the waiting room and wonder what i would see when they finally got to scanning me.
it amazing how i know but i knew exactly where to look and right away i spotted your little heart beat.. woohoo... stress aleviated.. turns out you are doing fantastic, growing nicely and your placenta which is our biggest concern is looking good.
oh and we got some lovely news - your a BOY!! its weird thinking of a little boy in our lives because we have been prepared for a girl with your sister so its a funny feeling - none the less its very exciting and i cant wait to meet you - when your fully grown and nice and strong!
next appointment is in three weeks i cant wait to see you again. grandma will be coming along for the scan so hope your smiling :)
it amazing how i know but i knew exactly where to look and right away i spotted your little heart beat.. woohoo... stress aleviated.. turns out you are doing fantastic, growing nicely and your placenta which is our biggest concern is looking good.
oh and we got some lovely news - your a BOY!! its weird thinking of a little boy in our lives because we have been prepared for a girl with your sister so its a funny feeling - none the less its very exciting and i cant wait to meet you - when your fully grown and nice and strong!
next appointment is in three weeks i cant wait to see you again. grandma will be coming along for the scan so hope your smiling :)
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Week 13
Today I am 13 weeks and 1 day... and I woke up this morning with a kick in the guts.. from the inside.. pretty certain that was cashew giving me a wake up call... Given that i know what that feels like.. im pretty confident that it was a moving baby in my belly and not something else! YAY!
13 weeks... i have calmed down a bit since last week when the penny dropped that i was pregnant and the fear and anxiety kicked in.. not a lot else to report for now..
13 weeks... i have calmed down a bit since last week when the penny dropped that i was pregnant and the fear and anxiety kicked in.. not a lot else to report for now..
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
antiphospho...what?
I thought a post regarding my sludge blood was appropriate in case any other baby lost mothers stop by with the same condition.
Our first born child, Matilda was born prematurely on the 5th of August 2009, due to my antiphospholipid antibody syndrome. Matilda develop IUGR due to the large number of clots that developed in her placenta. While I was aware of my condition, the doctors believed I was on the best medication regime at that stage. I was taking 100mg of Clexane (lovenox) once daily for the course of my pregnancy.
Towards the end of Matilda's life i was transferred into the care of Dr C, a maternofetal specialist who agreed to see us with any future pregnancies. He has dealt with difficult patients (like me) before and has had success so heres hoping he has some more up his sleeve!
Dr C has put me on a regime of 80mg of Clexane twice a day - 12 hours apart, as well as 3000mg of fish oil, as well as 150mg of low dose asprin - all these three are essentially blood thinners with the asprin crossing the placenta to ensure no clots form in there. In addition im taking pregnancy vitamins and folate.
So far the placenta and baby are both doing well and so i have to stay positive and hope that my little angel is looking over us.
Our first born child, Matilda was born prematurely on the 5th of August 2009, due to my antiphospholipid antibody syndrome. Matilda develop IUGR due to the large number of clots that developed in her placenta. While I was aware of my condition, the doctors believed I was on the best medication regime at that stage. I was taking 100mg of Clexane (lovenox) once daily for the course of my pregnancy.
Towards the end of Matilda's life i was transferred into the care of Dr C, a maternofetal specialist who agreed to see us with any future pregnancies. He has dealt with difficult patients (like me) before and has had success so heres hoping he has some more up his sleeve!
Dr C has put me on a regime of 80mg of Clexane twice a day - 12 hours apart, as well as 3000mg of fish oil, as well as 150mg of low dose asprin - all these three are essentially blood thinners with the asprin crossing the placenta to ensure no clots form in there. In addition im taking pregnancy vitamins and folate.
So far the placenta and baby are both doing well and so i have to stay positive and hope that my little angel is looking over us.
Week 11
So our holiday was a bit more tiring than I had hoped but we made it through unharmed. I actually felt guilty being on holiday because i was doing too much and not eating right.
Yesterday we had another appointment with Dr. C - he was very pleased. Cashew has caught up on growth and now is measuring the right size just about for my dates. Good work little one! Even better our blood test results showed we had an excellent placenta and that the risk of trisomy of various varieties is extremely low!
We always go to our appointments expecting the worst - so for once it was nice to hear positive news.. espicially as they took us into that dad calls the evil room - the evil room is the last room Matilda was ever scanned in.. and there was no heart beat in that scan. Perhaps now it can be slightly less evil of a room?
So currently cashew is 4.55cm with a strong heart beat of 158! I hope I continue to be sick, I am happy to endure this feeling knowing that it is making cashew nice and strong.
While there are no forward plans at this stage, Dr C expects you will be born around 32 weeks all things going smoothly. We still aren't strong enough to share the news with too many people in our lives, just a few very close family and friends. I have no idea when we will be - I know i wont be able to keep you hidden for too much longer :)
keep growing little munchkin!
Yesterday we had another appointment with Dr. C - he was very pleased. Cashew has caught up on growth and now is measuring the right size just about for my dates. Good work little one! Even better our blood test results showed we had an excellent placenta and that the risk of trisomy of various varieties is extremely low!
We always go to our appointments expecting the worst - so for once it was nice to hear positive news.. espicially as they took us into that dad calls the evil room - the evil room is the last room Matilda was ever scanned in.. and there was no heart beat in that scan. Perhaps now it can be slightly less evil of a room?
So currently cashew is 4.55cm with a strong heart beat of 158! I hope I continue to be sick, I am happy to endure this feeling knowing that it is making cashew nice and strong.
While there are no forward plans at this stage, Dr C expects you will be born around 32 weeks all things going smoothly. We still aren't strong enough to share the news with too many people in our lives, just a few very close family and friends. I have no idea when we will be - I know i wont be able to keep you hidden for too much longer :)
keep growing little munchkin!
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