Week 13

Today I am 13 weeks and 1 day... and I woke up this morning with a kick in the guts.. from the inside.. pretty certain that was cashew giving me a wake up call... Given that i know what that feels like.. im pretty confident that it was a moving baby in my belly and not something else! YAY!

13 weeks... i have calmed down a bit since last week when the penny dropped that i was pregnant and the fear and anxiety kicked in..  not a lot else to report for now..

antiphospho...what?

I thought a post regarding my sludge blood was appropriate in case any other baby lost mothers stop by with the same condition.

Our first born child, Matilda was born prematurely on the 5th of August 2009, due to my antiphospholipid antibody syndrome. Matilda develop IUGR due to the large number of clots that developed in her placenta. While I was aware of my condition, the doctors believed I was on the best medication regime at that stage. I was taking 100mg of Clexane (lovenox) once daily for the course of my pregnancy.

Towards the end of Matilda's life i was transferred into the care of Dr C, a maternofetal specialist who agreed to see us with any future pregnancies. He has dealt with difficult patients (like me) before and has had success so heres hoping he has some more up his sleeve!

Dr C has put me on a regime of 80mg of Clexane twice a day - 12 hours apart, as well as 3000mg of fish oil, as well as 150mg of low dose asprin - all these three are essentially blood thinners with the asprin crossing the placenta to ensure no clots form in there. In addition im taking pregnancy vitamins and folate.

So far the placenta and baby are both doing well and so i have to stay positive and hope that my little angel is looking over us.

Week 11

So our holiday was a bit more tiring than I had hoped but we made it through unharmed. I actually felt guilty being on holiday because i was doing too much and not eating right.

Yesterday we had another appointment with Dr. C - he was very pleased. Cashew has caught up on growth and now is measuring the right size just about for my dates. Good work little one! Even better our blood test results showed we had an excellent placenta and that the risk of trisomy of various varieties is extremely low!

We always go to our appointments expecting the worst - so for once it was nice to hear positive news.. espicially as they took us into that dad calls the evil room - the evil room is the last room Matilda was ever scanned in.. and there was no heart beat in that scan. Perhaps now it can be slightly less evil of a room?

So currently cashew is 4.55cm with a strong heart beat of 158! I hope I continue to be sick, I am happy to endure this feeling knowing that it is making cashew nice and strong.

While there are no forward plans at this stage, Dr C expects you will be born around 32 weeks all things going smoothly. We still aren't strong enough to share the news with too many people in our lives, just a few very close family and friends. I have no idea when we will be - I know i wont be able to keep you hidden for too much longer :)

keep growing little munchkin!

Week 9

its only the start of week 9 today! im taking you off to the football again tonight.. i hope i dont feel too sickly.. the football is timed perfectly with the time my morning sickness kicks in every evening and could make for a not very fun night!

we are also heading off to rotto this week for your first holiday - you wont be doing much apart from growing i hope..

thats all for now...

Week 8

I spent most of week 8 feeling sick.. like vomiting mixed with sea sickness mixed with a hang over! This is making for a very difficult time at work.. where i am hoping everyone is blissfully unaware of you.. i dont know how they wouldn't know though.. i feel like a heffalump :)

We had our first appointment with C and there you were again, heart beating nice and strong but again a few days smaller than you should be.. 7w 5d instead of 8w 2d.. none the less C was not worried and i have to take some solace in the knowledge that he is the expert. Still i wish you would grow little one!

Week 7

So today is the last day of week 7. I feel tired, bloated, frumpy and queasy. Not all at once though so thats a good thing! This queasyness is certainly interesting... i have never felt anything like it.. it comes and goes as it pleases... i have developed an aversion to meat - red meat in particular... even the thought of looking at it cooked makes me gag!

Cashew - you don't know it but you went to your first football game last weekend - and geez it was a good game... i think having been present at such a magnificent performance you aredestined to be a freo supporter - but lets not tell dad about that yet! I hope my blood pressure wasnt getting too high for you - i was trying really hard to keep calm.. but hey you know how exciting it all was!

we have our first appoint with C on monday at 1.45pm.. i am looking forward to seeing you... i wonder what you look like - do you have a tail. This is one thing that amazes me the fact that all babys have a tail at some point! i'm pretty certain your dad is also looking forward to seeing you little one!

i feel i have "popper out" already... i am surprised no one has said anything.. but then given how our last pregnancy ended, im not surprised... but i do suppose i am a wee bit pleased i dont have to start talking to people about this little one yet.

Week 6

You are your fathers baby... i have been somewhat addicted to BBQ shapes, corn chips, eating vegemite and cheese toasties and today, whilst at the shop i grabbed a sausage roll.. i can not remember the last time i devoured an entire sausage roll.. im blaming you my little cashew!