Today we had another check up. We had the last appointment of the day at 7pm. Unfortunately, we didn't get to see Craig until about 8.30pm! Boy, did we get interesting news when we did eventually get to see him!
He kept measuring you over and over again - he seemed calm and so we didn't think anything of it - I actually just thought it was going as per normal check up. Turns out that the shew has not grown since his 33 Week check. ARGH!
Craig says "this baby will be coming out this week"
I say "when, like thursday or friday"
Craig says "tomorrow"
ARGHHHH!
So tomorrow, we have to go to hospital first thing in the morning, and the shew will be monitored - any signs of distress and he will be coming out via emergency c-section. Everything going well, I will be induced tomorrow night and the shew will be born sometime on Wednesday!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Week 34
Week 34 was interesting.. Im not sure how other mother feel about bonding with a unborn baby following the loss of another.. for me, after Matilda died, my ultimate fear for any future pregnancy was that I would not be able to bond with my baby until it was born.. it made me feel quiet upset to think that i would not be able to enjoy this pregnancy.. alas once i found out i was pregnant (and this happened quiet early for us - 3w and 4 d) I was instantly in love with this little guy.. I wanted him more than anything that I've wanted in a long time and that was before he was even considered "viable" (geez I hate that term!)
As the pregnancy went on I continued to bond and love my baby boy every day.. he will never replace his sister but he is helping me realise that life can go on.. everytime we see this little guy on ultrasound he looks like a grumpy little boy but i guess if i was being poked and prodded and disturbed then i would be grumpy too.. until last week... I was being ultrasounded and there he was in 3d on the screen and i was just watching him.. and he smiled.. yup he actually smiled.. like he knew we were watching him.. the sonographer even managed to catch it on his pictures! I think it was this exact moment that i fell completely and truly in love with him - i will get around to putting this picture on here shortly..
I also got given an induction date at my appointment this week - 8th November! that means this little man will be officially joining us on the 9th of November!! thats 2 weeks today!!! And i am starting to think about what it means to give birth to a living baby.. everything from the labour and everything that follows!
As the pregnancy went on I continued to bond and love my baby boy every day.. he will never replace his sister but he is helping me realise that life can go on.. everytime we see this little guy on ultrasound he looks like a grumpy little boy but i guess if i was being poked and prodded and disturbed then i would be grumpy too.. until last week... I was being ultrasounded and there he was in 3d on the screen and i was just watching him.. and he smiled.. yup he actually smiled.. like he knew we were watching him.. the sonographer even managed to catch it on his pictures! I think it was this exact moment that i fell completely and truly in love with him - i will get around to putting this picture on here shortly..
I also got given an induction date at my appointment this week - 8th November! that means this little man will be officially joining us on the 9th of November!! thats 2 weeks today!!! And i am starting to think about what it means to give birth to a living baby.. everything from the labour and everything that follows!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Week 33
Once again I am home alone while Cashews dad is interstate for work - thankfully this will be the last of his travel until after the baby arrives! Being on my own has really made me feel like this is actually happening.. i am on my own all day so there is plenty of time to focus on my aches and pains which are constantly increasing!
I had an appointment with the MFM on monday and everything continues to look good. I told him about my anxiety and particularly that I dont feel comfortable stopping my asprin.. the asprin is what keeps the placenta going strong in my condition so stopping it for two weeks before induction was really troubling me.. we have negotiated that i will stop the asprin 7 days before induction now. in addition i will see him every week and we will decide when in the next 4 weeks this little guy will be induced - but no later than 38 weeks!
currently the shew is 2.3kg... im not sure how this compares to normal.. but thats such a big number to me.. Matilda was a poorly 135g when she was born.. my poor little munchkin... i know i shouldnt compare the two of them but when you have nothing else to compare with its hard sometimes..
i hope once again that everything is going well with all the other rainbow babies out there and i will be thinking of all our babies on the 15th Oct and lighting a special candle for them all.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Week 32
Once again, in territory where we once thought this would be the longest possible gestation for this pregnancy.. alas here we are and we now are now waiting for week 36 to see how my placenta is holding up.. best case scenario remains induction at 38 weeks.. by my calculations that means this little guy will be joining us around about the 16th of November...
last week we had an appointment with the specialist and i got to take my mother in law to the scan.. of all the weeks the doctor was two hours late and we had to sit in the waiting room for ages.. still.. we have been on the other end of that waiting period, where we have been the cause of the delay.. the doctor is only ever that late if another family is getting bad news.. and that day he happened to have to deal with two different families going through a bad experience. it saddens me to know that there are other families who have to go through bad experiences.. i know it happens but that was like a reminder that we are not alone in this journey and it brings back all the feelings i had last august when we lost Matilda.
on a side note, grandma got to see cashew in 3D and real time.. as a midwife she'd seen a number of babies but i dont think she's ever seen an ultrasound before- in fact she stayed a few extra days just so she could stay behind and come to our appointment!
i have now been on leave for two weeks but having had cashews grandparent visiting for that whole time has meant there has been little time for R&R until now. I also had quiet a bad cold which turned out to be a virus and i was put onto antibiotics and found myself back in the maternal fetal assessment unit in hospital as i couldnt feel much movement during the worst days of the virus. everything is ok on that front and it turned out that cashew was just resting as i was unwell..
week 32 sees cashews dad starting a new job and he has been sent away for two weeks so i am finally on my own with the furbies to rest and recuperate.. i am soo looking forward to sleeping in and being generally lazy!!!
ps - had my first experience with braxton hicks contractions (or so i presume) last week!
last week we had an appointment with the specialist and i got to take my mother in law to the scan.. of all the weeks the doctor was two hours late and we had to sit in the waiting room for ages.. still.. we have been on the other end of that waiting period, where we have been the cause of the delay.. the doctor is only ever that late if another family is getting bad news.. and that day he happened to have to deal with two different families going through a bad experience. it saddens me to know that there are other families who have to go through bad experiences.. i know it happens but that was like a reminder that we are not alone in this journey and it brings back all the feelings i had last august when we lost Matilda.
on a side note, grandma got to see cashew in 3D and real time.. as a midwife she'd seen a number of babies but i dont think she's ever seen an ultrasound before- in fact she stayed a few extra days just so she could stay behind and come to our appointment!
i have now been on leave for two weeks but having had cashews grandparent visiting for that whole time has meant there has been little time for R&R until now. I also had quiet a bad cold which turned out to be a virus and i was put onto antibiotics and found myself back in the maternal fetal assessment unit in hospital as i couldnt feel much movement during the worst days of the virus. everything is ok on that front and it turned out that cashew was just resting as i was unwell..
week 32 sees cashews dad starting a new job and he has been sent away for two weeks so i am finally on my own with the furbies to rest and recuperate.. i am soo looking forward to sleeping in and being generally lazy!!!
ps - had my first experience with braxton hicks contractions (or so i presume) last week!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Week 29+30
Week 29 was kinda uneventful... with the exception of it being my last week at work.. unfortunately i was struck down with the dreaded man flu for the second time this year and am still not allowed to take much in terms of cold and flu medication to keep it under control.. so i ended up taking a few days off work and missed out on saying bye to alot of people - which i am secretly grateful for! I did have a nice lunch at the pup (no i had no beer) with a few close friends on my last day and was given a lovely bunch of presents from everyone at work.. i actually found it hard to believe that this is me currently sitting here on leave awaiting the arrival of this little guy.. like actually waiting to bring him home..
We had an appointment with the specialist on tuesday and everything is still looking good.. and he still only wants to see me every two weeks - i'd really prefer if he wanted to see me every week because it would mean that i wouldnt have to wait as long between seeing the shew. and i guess i might be freaking out a bit less..
Week 30, I have been struck down hard by the cold this week and consequently the little fella has also been quiet.. this resulted in a trip to the maternal assessment unit at the hospital where we were strapped onto a monitor for the afternoon and got to listen to his heart beat and kicking..
Grandma and grandpa are also visiting us from interstate and they are very excited about the arrival of this little guy.. i think every one is really! accept maybe the furbies who have been taking all the changes in the house over the past week a little harshly!
i went to the GP today to find out if my cold was anything more than a cold and he suspects its a virus but has given me some antibiotics in case it gets worse over the weekend.. im not sure what to do.. do i take them and potentially upset the cashew or do i keep couching and spluttering and upset the cashew that way... hmmm... i am sick of couching and spluttering and add to that, everytime i blow my nose i end up with a blood nose from my blood thinners...
in other news.. i has seen the first signs of stretch marks this week.. i know this is a good thing because it means the little guy is getting bigger! excellent news!
We had an appointment with the specialist on tuesday and everything is still looking good.. and he still only wants to see me every two weeks - i'd really prefer if he wanted to see me every week because it would mean that i wouldnt have to wait as long between seeing the shew. and i guess i might be freaking out a bit less..
Week 30, I have been struck down hard by the cold this week and consequently the little fella has also been quiet.. this resulted in a trip to the maternal assessment unit at the hospital where we were strapped onto a monitor for the afternoon and got to listen to his heart beat and kicking..
Grandma and grandpa are also visiting us from interstate and they are very excited about the arrival of this little guy.. i think every one is really! accept maybe the furbies who have been taking all the changes in the house over the past week a little harshly!
i went to the GP today to find out if my cold was anything more than a cold and he suspects its a virus but has given me some antibiotics in case it gets worse over the weekend.. im not sure what to do.. do i take them and potentially upset the cashew or do i keep couching and spluttering and upset the cashew that way... hmmm... i am sick of couching and spluttering and add to that, everytime i blow my nose i end up with a blood nose from my blood thinners...
in other news.. i has seen the first signs of stretch marks this week.. i know this is a good thing because it means the little guy is getting bigger! excellent news!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Week 28
I just built (well assembled) your pram sweet shew!
28 weeks... once upon a time 28 weeks was the best case scenario we were given for your gestation, slowly this was pushed out to 32 weeks and now we are told 38 weeks is quiet a possibility! Here were are at 28 weeks and 4 days and while i am trying to maintain some sentiment of composure and contain my excitement, there is a little part of me that is quiet over joyed at the thought of holding you in 10 weeks time!
I have 1 week and 2 days left of work before I am on leave and I was planning on starting the nursery then.. fortunately the room is painted blue and white already so thats one job that wont need doing! Currently all cashews things are in the guest room while we prepared to have the carpets in the nursery cleaned and the curtains installed but since grandma and grandpa have decided to visit us - we have had to speed up the process a little.. so yesterday we had the carpets cleaned and today i assembled the pram which is now sitting in the nursery.. the first thing that is officially in the cashews room! i find it a little hard to believe really! its kinda of surreal as the nursery never got to this stage with little Matilda.
I feel like sorting out the pram is a really big step - even though its not.. i am tempted to start organising the cot.. but im wondering if that would be getting ahead of myself!
meanwhile everything is progressing nicely with the shew.. we have another appointment on Tuesday, and we have our parenting class on saturday and monday..
i hope everyone is well in blog land?
28 weeks... once upon a time 28 weeks was the best case scenario we were given for your gestation, slowly this was pushed out to 32 weeks and now we are told 38 weeks is quiet a possibility! Here were are at 28 weeks and 4 days and while i am trying to maintain some sentiment of composure and contain my excitement, there is a little part of me that is quiet over joyed at the thought of holding you in 10 weeks time!
I have 1 week and 2 days left of work before I am on leave and I was planning on starting the nursery then.. fortunately the room is painted blue and white already so thats one job that wont need doing! Currently all cashews things are in the guest room while we prepared to have the carpets in the nursery cleaned and the curtains installed but since grandma and grandpa have decided to visit us - we have had to speed up the process a little.. so yesterday we had the carpets cleaned and today i assembled the pram which is now sitting in the nursery.. the first thing that is officially in the cashews room! i find it a little hard to believe really! its kinda of surreal as the nursery never got to this stage with little Matilda.
I feel like sorting out the pram is a really big step - even though its not.. i am tempted to start organising the cot.. but im wondering if that would be getting ahead of myself!
meanwhile everything is progressing nicely with the shew.. we have another appointment on Tuesday, and we have our parenting class on saturday and monday..
i hope everyone is well in blog land?
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Week 27
Once again, we are in unchartered territory - officially we are in the third trimester. I've never been "this" pregnant before. I am due to leave work in two weeks and I am almost at the point we were told would be our best case scenario for this little guy. And now, we are looking so good the line has been moved out! Its quiet hard to believe still.
27 weeks and all is well with our little boy. Our appointment on monday though very late was very good. Cashew weighs in at 1143g this week and is measuring 4 days ahead of schedule. The OB still thinks 38 weeks is the best goal for this little guy so we are pleased that he is pleased.
Every time I see the OB he reassures me that everything is going well and asks if im feeling relaxed yet. I know he means well but my response is simply that I will not be relaxed until this little guy is born screaming his lungs out and is handed to me for a snuggle.
I have started to tire a lot of late and am really looking forward to having some time off to rest and recover before this little guy comes home. I've started taking iron supplements too now so hopefully I will start to feel better in this regard soon.
I hope everyone is doing well out there in baby loss land, wishing everyone trying for rainbow babies the best of luck and i hope those of you with rainbows are doing well too.
27 weeks and all is well with our little boy. Our appointment on monday though very late was very good. Cashew weighs in at 1143g this week and is measuring 4 days ahead of schedule. The OB still thinks 38 weeks is the best goal for this little guy so we are pleased that he is pleased.
Every time I see the OB he reassures me that everything is going well and asks if im feeling relaxed yet. I know he means well but my response is simply that I will not be relaxed until this little guy is born screaming his lungs out and is handed to me for a snuggle.
I have started to tire a lot of late and am really looking forward to having some time off to rest and recover before this little guy comes home. I've started taking iron supplements too now so hopefully I will start to feel better in this regard soon.
I hope everyone is doing well out there in baby loss land, wishing everyone trying for rainbow babies the best of luck and i hope those of you with rainbows are doing well too.
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