So before I start, I thought I might put in a little warning - My thoughts on pregnancy are something i have never really talked about to anyone so if they come out all wrong on here I don't intend for them to upset anyone and by no means to I intend to sound ungrateful for this pregnancy.
Things I like...
- I like the way you kick me.. I like how strong they are.. I like how cheeky they can be..
- I like the warm fuzzy feeling I get after each ultrasound - particularly when you are ahead of growth and doing so well!
- I liked being sick at the start of my pregnancy because I knew it was you doing well in there!
- I like that your mine and i love u so much already... i cant wait to meet you!
- I like watching by belly while you kick and shove me :) its cute!
Things I didn't like so much...
- when people ask if this is my first child.. this is not your fault bubby
- vomiting raisin toast...
- the spotting episode/s!
- not being comfortable telling the world about you - i've wanted to shout it from the rafters since i found out yet even now i can count on my fingers and toes the number of people that actually know!
- clexane needles - but they keep you alive so i am happy to have them..
- ITCHY eyes - which begun at week 32 - it may be a hay fever thing but its apparently linked with water supplies in later pregnancy!
- waiting for you now.. at 33 weeks i always thought you would be out by now but i have to be patient and let you cook a bit longer - i've always been impatient... people say kids make you more patient.. perhaps this waiting is part of the first lesson?
Things I missed...
- smoked salmon
- a nice icey G&T on a hot day
Things I craved...
I dont know that I had strong cravings - like I wasnt going to hurt anyone if i didnt get these things.. but i certainly over indulged in a few things that I wouldnt normally have..
- Barbeque Shapes
- Cheese and vegemite sandwiches
- Passiona
- Fairy bread
- Mangos
Extra special moments so far in this pregnancy....
- finding out about you - even though you were planned you still were a bit of a surprise..
- seeing you go from a yolk sac with a heart beat to a little tadpole to a little cashew to a little boy..
- feeling you tapping on the inside of my belly on saturday morning - week 14 from memory..
- your dad feeling you move for the first time at 23 weeks
- finding out you were a boy at 15 weeks...
- feeling braxton hicks contractions for the first time ever!
I plan to add to this list as i remember things..
I felt similar things while pregnant with Kyle. Wanting to tell the world but not being able to tell. I think some people are still upset with me for not telling them soon enough that I was pregnant, they just don't understand how hard it is after a pregnancy loss. You love your growing baby but so scared you may lose another little one - it's just not fair.
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